I think I'm done...

There's really no point in me blogging anymore, nothing is happening, and to be honest, I'm pretty tired of it. So, for now, I say goodbye to you guys.

"Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know. If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go. Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon. Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon..."

Peace.

Everything about you is so easy to love.

I just got a headache from thinking about him...

Screw this, I'm miserable. And I think I've found someone else, and I could actually tell this guy that I like him. And I think he likes me, but I'm not positive yet. He's the complete opposite, and he looks at me like he actually cares about me, not telling me that everyone hates me, and that no one wants me here. He looks at me with so much care in his eyes. No one has ever looked at me like that before. And he cares about me, I know he does.

I love every little thing you do..

I promise I'm never gonna blog about him again, and no more about my non-existent "life". I'm done. This time, finally, I really am.

Emptiness.

"I can’t take the pressure. No one cares if you live or die, they just want me gone."

-Thom Yorke

I'm sorry I haven't been posting much, it's just nothings been going on...

:(

Peace.

I'll Love You Endlessly.

"How did it end up like this?" ~The Killers

Orchestra went very well today. Except I sucked because I got new strings put on my violin yesterday so everything I played sounded horribly out of tune. Oh well.

Next week we're hosting the middle school UIL. Which will be fun. Hopefully.

I want to do something. About him. And I've come to a conclusion. About him. And I will do something about it. Next week? Maybe, maybe not. But I am. I promise. That's basically the only reason for this post.

Tomorrow's the last day of February. And it was 90° yesterday. Because y'all just needed that insight in my life.

I think I'll shut up now.

Peace.

Qu'est-ce qui est arrivé?*

"I love you like the stars above, I love you till I die."

-The Killers

I was debating with myself (yes, I know that is not healthy), whether or not to post this. But I decided to, it is my blog anyway. You guys are probably gonna freak out, just please don't, I'm perfectly sane. Really, I was just bored in french.

I'm falling away,
with nowhere to go,
this darkness is so heavy
this death is so slow.

There is no pain,
you can't show any emotion.
You feel like you're drowning
in a dark, deep blue ocean.

It is so calm,
but you just want to leave.
You can't be here,
you don't even believe.

You just feel lonely,
and you don't feel right.
Here there is only darkness,
there is no light.

Again, I am sane, just don't worry about me. :)

This really has been one of the worst weeks ever. Except pre-UIL went good, and we should do better for the actual UIL, which is in two weeks! :O

And about the last post: I do feel better now, but I'm still confused about him, he's been a real bastard lately. I'm just not sure anymore.

*What happened?

Peace.

Irritation.

"Cause you're my true love, my whole heart, please don't throw that away. I'm here for you. Please don't walk away, please tell me you'll stay." ~The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Today:

WORST. DAY. EVER.

I really wanted to crawl into a hole and die. Yeah, it was that bad.

I'm pissed off, confused, hurt, angry, mad, sad, and sick. Of course I'm sick before pre-UIL, everything goes wrong when we're about to go to a competition. I felt like I was going to throw up during orchestra today so I couldn't really concentrate, I was too busy trying not to honk all over the orchestra room.

I hate him right now, after this weekend my whole view on him went into the crapper. Now I like this other guy. I want a guy who has his looks but the other guy's personality. Shit.

You're probably wondering what went wrong. He's just become a(n) [insert bad word here]. I don't even know what happened to him. I miss the guy that I first met when I came here.

I love you. I miss you. You're the only person I want, ever will want. I want you back.

Agitation.

~Victoria.

Sleep Deprivation.

"Non, Anne prend son scooter!"

Yes, I know it's 5:30 in the morning. Yes, I know I should be asleep like normal people usually are at this time in the morning. But I feel like I could run a mile right now. Why? I have no fricken clue.

I had this creepy-weird dream, which I guess really pissed me off. So now I'm pissed off, and I can't sleep.

I thought coming here would help. Nope, not much. Then I went to Myspace. Yeah, not the best of ideas either. I was hoping someone would be on, then I realized, "Hey, it's 5 in the morning, shouldn't they be asleep?"

:(

Sorry, this is a weird post, I know. Especially the quote. That was a question from french, it means "No, Anne is taking her scooter!" or something like that. Now I can't remember what "pendre" means. It's too late to go to sleep now. :(

I'm fine, really, I am.

Oh, and one last thing: It said taurus' had a dreamy sexy voice. But isn't he a taurus?

Peace.