Sunday, February 8, 2009

In Limbo?

It's been a month...A whole month...

He still hasn't said anything. No indication if he noticed it or not. It's more likely not though....

I hate that feeling like you're in the dark, and you don't know what's going on. You don't know what to feel, or if you should even feel anything at all. You want to care for that special person, but at the same time you don't want to waste your time on someone you're not sure would ever care for you and have the same feelings as you do for them.

There's times you feel like you need them that very second you start feeling even the tiniest bit of loneliness. But you know they will never be there to ease your pain. Not now, and probably not ever. But you still carry that little piece of hope in your heart, praying that one day, sometime soon, that he cares. But you don't want to wait any longer. And you can't.

Something is keeping you there with him, you don't know what, but something is telling you that he's hiding his true feelings. Or at least that's what you hope.

Caring for him may have caused you more damage than good, you soon realize. You've been waiting too long, and you've given up too much of your time trying to make him understand. To see that he's one of the only people you trust. You've somehow become numb. Nothing phases you anymore. You almost feel cold-hearted. But he's still one of the only people in your life you care about.

Love? For you it could possibly be. You can't leave him, and it's too hard for you to let him go. Would leaving him help you? Or would it just create more pain, and a bigger hole in your heart? There's only one way to find out...

["Limbo: the state of being disregarded or forgotten."

In limbo? Most definatly.]

9 comment(s):

Jaky Astik said...

for me, I won't leave someone I love. If I may have to, I would rather choose to die. It's harder to think about that person and cry than dying.

simpleman said...

wow... i dont even know what to say.. that was powerful..

lone poet said...

and this vikki, is why i love you so damn much.

Ali said...

i'm sorry you're in limbo. :(

•waLkiиg disasteя• said...

ah!!thts wht u can love dear!!
u r in love....trust me:)

krl said...

FUCK!!!!! If you haven't already seen it then YouTube 'radiohead 09 Grammy'. Their performance of 15 step gave me several dozen orgasms. And thom's hair! And colon (bass) now has a beard!

Gosh. That 15 step; second greatest thing ever heard.

Krl

krl said...

turns out, she didnt know. or shes lying. i really dont know.

it is amazing. nine orgasms now. ahhh.... coldplays performance was superb too. and u2s. and paul mccartney/dave grohl. katy perry's was atrociously bad.

im really looking forward to u2's new album and seeing coldplay live (17 days!!).

gmail?

krl

krl said...

never mind. gmail doesnt work on this pieceofcrap pc.

krl

simpleman said...

Thanks:) it means a lot that you like my stuff. I really cant express.